Ring of Fire

I keep a journal of my Mediumship journey to keep track of my progress. I’d like to share with you excerpts from two days in May that explain a little bit about the type of messages I get and all the doubt I have in myself and my abilities.

May 10, 2025

I am so excited about all of this spirit world stuff that I forget that other people think it’s a joke and not real. I had read for a friend of mine and got a little bit from his Mother. I thought he actually took me seriously because he asked me later to read for his Grandpa. But, it was all a joke and a waste of time. I got somebody, I am not sure who. I asked how they died and they said, “Heart attack.” I asked what they did or liked doing and they said, “Scuba dive and army.” I also got the words “team leader” “Bailey” and “Buick LeSabre.” I got “camping” and “fishing” when I asked what he did with his grandson. I then got “Budweiser” and the song “Ring of Fire” by Johnny Cash. When I told my friend what I got, he responded by saying, “That’s amazing because he was friends with Johnny Cash.” He didn’t say anything else. My heart sank when I read that because I knew right then he didn’t take me seriously at all. I googled my friend’s name and tried to find a Nickolas that might be related to him. I didn’t find anyone named Nickolas. I shouldn’t have, but I responded, “Thanks for making me feel like shit” and then I told him off.

May 11, 2025

I could delete part of yesterday’s journal and make myself sound better, but I am not going to. I was wrong about my friend making fun of me. I want my response to my friend to show how much doubt goes on in my head while trying to enter this world of evidential mediumship. If I have even the tiniest seed of doubt I take it and run with it. My friend texted me after I told him off for making fun of me and said, “I did not take it as a joke. My Grandpa owned a bar across the street from the music hall and Johnny Cash would come into his bar when he was in town and they developed a friendship over the years. 100% true story.” I apologized and said, “I just thought you were making fun of me. I am such an asshole.” He said, “I was not making fun of you. I was amazed by the Johnny Cash reference because apparently I met him too, but I was a toddler.” He also told me that the name Bailey was his cousin’s daughter that was killed in an ATV accident. He talked to his Dad and his Dad told him that his Grandpa also always owned older Buicks. His Grandpa was also in the army. I felt foolish, but again it was a good lesson for me to believe in myself and also to trust that others might also believe me. Even if they are few and far between.

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